it's OVER... =(

STOP doing this to me.... =(

u saw me in uni.. and all u did is just "HI"? and how come when we're online, we can chat for hours??? o.0 why? i dun understand.. in uni, even if i'm sitting right behind u, u also won't talk to me.. i msg u.. 100 msgs sent to u, i only received 10 from u.. and wad? say we need to talk again? and during the talk, u'll ask "not even a msg from u??" or "if i dun find u, u dun find me.."?? it's always like this.. why???? i dun understand.. i need an answer.. but why when we chat online.. none of this happened?? T.T

u made me cried and after crying, u made me smiled.. but after i smiled, u made me angry and when i got angry, u made me happy... T.T

u don't know how it hurts, sitting back-to-back with the person u loved so much, not talking to each other................................

i am NOT okay AT ALL!!! =(

MONDAY:
i ate my breakfast at 7am and after tht i went to uni. i had fever around 11.30am.. so i went back home.. i went to sleep.. i dun feel hungry or anything. just feel tired and having a really bad headache. i just wanna sleep. i slept from 1pm till the next day 6.30am.

TUESDAY:
6.30am, i woke up and my head was in great pain.. =( around 8am, mum sent me to the clinic.. yes! i'm having fever!! and guess what?? i had 10 to 20 ULCERS in my throat!!! it's like acnes in my throat!!! wth???? o.0 anyways, i went back home and it's just 10am.. so i went to sleep without eating.. except medicine.. and i sleep till 3.30pm in the afternoon, i woke up.. and online.. till around 5pm, i went to sleep till the next morning, 6am! =.=

WEDNESDAY:
reached uni at 8.30am.. but i din attend any of my class today.. was doing my assignment in the library and i feel lazy to go to class.. =( i'm lack of energy.. =( Shakir saw me and he was like "Cheryl! you looked so yellowish!!" I DIN EAT FOR 2 DAYS!!! =.= then jessica brought me to eat sushi.. i din eat much.. only 2 plates... =.= and i can't finish it.. =( but at least i ate! xD then we went back to the uni.. and watched this video of my pakistani frens dancing, trying to cheer a fren up.. it's really funny.. i was laughing in the library till my stomach cramped.. =.="



but after i came back home.. back to emo moment.. =(

i could see it in ur eyes, u feel the same about us as i... there is no way the truth can be disguise.. u're still in love with me, u would never really out of love with me.. your eyes don't lie.. =(

Forget the times he walked by,
Forget the times he made you cry;
Forget the times he spoke your name,
Remember now your not the same.
Forget the times he held your hand,
Forget the sweet things if you can;
Forget the times & Don't pretend,
Remember now he's just your friend.

我好想要离开这个地方。 我不想要在这个地方住了。我累了。我真的真的好累。我不想再继续伤害自己，更不想去伤害别人。好折磨。真的好折磨。

我可以哭吗？T.T